Getting Through

To say the least this has been an extremely difficult week. Starting it off with sick kids, as well as knowing what was to come with losing this pregnancy made it difficult just to face it. I'm more than grateful to my dear sweet husband who took time off work to stay home with me and to help me a couple of days this week. He has been a great source of strength and comfort to me during this trying time. He has helped with the kids and the chores around the house, as well as spending time talking with me and letting me cry on his shoulder. I'm grateful that he is a worthy priesthood holder and for his willingness to exercise it when needed. I can't imagine a day short of eternity with him. I truly would be lost without him.

Wednesday afternoon I started having tons of pain. Howard took the kids to Karlie's doctor appointment, and to get their flu shots so that I didn't have to take them with the way I felt. How glad I am that he did too! It would have been disastrous to say the least if I had have been out with all that occurred after they left. I certainly was not prepared for what followed, and certainly not the duration. While Wednesday was the worst, it was off again on again missery Saturday afternoon. If I had have known how bad it was going to be, I would have opted for another D&C.

Now I am left completely drained both physically and emotionally. I am grateful to have it behind me now. I hope that I recover from this ordeal quickly that I can have the energy that I need to keep up with my kids. Derek and Brayden are both so full of energy and micheviousness that indeed it requires a lot of energy to keep up with them or they get into a lot of trouble. I am grateful to have them to play with and enjoy right now to help keep my mind off of what has been lost. My three kids bring me so much joy as I watch them learn and grow. As I watch the development of each of their individual personalities and get to see who they are becoming it indeed makes me happy that I get to be their mother. They too have been a great source of strength through all of this.